For those of you who live close, you've probably already noticed the bulge. For those of you not so close, you've probably noticed I have totally checked out, barely even blogging. And for my dear, dear friends, thank you so much for the compassion you have shown to me through supporting me, listening to me, bringing me meals, watching my children, and helping me in my calling. The last many weeks could not have been survived without you.
I am expecting baby #6 and am so excited, but oh, so sick. I just am not any good at being pregnant. I throw up, loose every bit of energy, and sometimes wish I could disappear for 9 months. I've been throwing up so hard I have black eyes because I have popped the blood vessels all around my eyes. I feel like I have the flu, my bones ache. I don't know if I am just getting old. I have had rough first trimesters with all my babies, and hopefully any day now the nausea should go away. I am praying because it is getting to be a bit too much. The couch and PBS have become my best friends. If I don't move, I don't usually throw up. But, with 5 children, I have to move, and being Primary President of a new ward also requires movement. I love my family, I love serving in church. I love that I get to have another baby. I have been so blessed. I do not love the sickness that comes with pregnancy. Obviously the end reward is worth it or I wouldn't do this 6 times, but when I am in the thick of the morning/all day sickness, I wonder how I can possibly survive.
So I am being "frank". Probably shouldn't be. I'm not trying to get sympathy, because I know a lot of women have it a whole lot worse. I like to be upbeat and positive, I know nobody wants to be around a negative person. And I usually am pretty positive, I think. So please forgive me for telling it like it is. I am so blessed. Come September when I have my strength back and life can return to normalcy, life will be good. I know this because I've done it so many times before. Until then, I will endure to the end and pray for a few good days here and there. And hope the nausea goes away soon. I'm not looking too pretty with black eyes.
13 comments:
i am so excited for you! that is the best news- the baby, not the sicky part. i hope you hang in there!
YAY! Congratulations, Steph. We are super excited for you!
yay! I'm glad you're going public now :). I hope it'll pass soon and as far as I'm concerned,when you're pregnant,you can vent as much as you want to.
congratulations! that is so exciting! i hope you starte feeling a little better soon. i cant imagine how you do it all! your amazing!
Congrats! I am so excited for you! I hope you feel better.
I don't think it's negative when you say you can't stand the nauseousness and vomiting stuff. You are a great mom and an even greater (not wholly sure that's a word) Primary President. I am down the street if you ever need me! Congrats once again...
Congratulations Guys! We are so thrilled for another niece/nephew/cousin! Will he/she be number 47 or 48? I think Addi is 46 and I know Sarise is due in September too! We are so happy for you all. Feel better soon Steph!
Oh Steph that is great news!! I hope it gets better for you, it sounds rotten!! I am sorry that you are feeling like that but oh you are right they are so worth it in the end!! We have been trying again for two years and no success so onto more dr.s not excited but we are just hoping for one more at least! You are such a super mom I know you will make it through this in no time and you will have your little bundle!! SO excited for you, sending best wishes!!
So excited for you guys! I sorry that you are so sick though. Hope it passes soon.
Love Ya!
Congrats Steph! AND sympathy, sympathy, sympathy!! Ask for it, because it sounds like you can use some and I'm sending all of mine your way. Vent away dear friend, vent away! Love you :)
That is such exciting news! I hope the sickness goes away soon-that is never fun.
Congratulations! We are excited for you! I'm sorry to hear you've been so sick. No fun, no fun at all. I hope it gets better.
Congrats. Every ounce of sickness is worth the end result, but I hope it passes quickly. I also thought 5 was the magic number!!! It still is for me!
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